My Journey... continues

Yesterday I wrote about a time,
where I visited the River Styx,
It proved to be one of the hardest
trips that I had to make,
Giving my little one to the boatman,
Still my journey goes on.
My daughter...she still comes to me,
in my dreams,
sometimes as a infant,
sometimes as a toddler,
sometimes as a child,
I always know when she's here.
Looking after her mommy.
She lets me know that,
she is OK.
She is happy and content.
And sometimes it makes me wonder,
Why am I not as happy as my
Mickey-Girl.

Well, today I am making an affirmation.

I choose life.
Grief is a powerful thing.
For 8 years, I have let it consume me.
Devour my heart and soul until,
there was nothing left to give
to anyone else.
Today, I choose happiness.
I choose to look at life as a blessing,
not a burden.
Instead of thinking of what could have
been... I am looking at what I have.
I choose tranquility,
I choose peace,
I choose prosperity,
I choose to love,
I choose to live.



My life has been a series of uuupppsss and dddooowwwnnnsss.



But I choose to be me.
Had it not been for those life
lessons. I would not be the person
that I am today.



Today, I choose the top.
I will be successful,
I will be rich beyond my wildest imagination,
In life, love, and riches,
I will speak nothing but positive thoughts,
For they will re-align my life.

I come from a long lineage of
great Southern Ladies and I
will make them proud. I will be
the lady that I was groomed to be.



For everyone else:
I will see you at the top.
Mediocracy has never been
in my blood. I will not
fall prey to it now.
I hope that you see the greatness
in you that I have found in myself.



Lots of love, peace, and tranquility,

Signed,
Ms. Alfreda "Fre-" Whatley

PostScript: Sometimes you have to get a little rain in your life to see the rainbows. For me... it has been 8 years of rain and sometimes, I wondered would it ever cease. My faith faltered at times. I became downtrodden. But as a woman... I know that my God is an awesome one and She gave me everything that I need to survive in this very big world. See, I have learned when life gives you lemons... just learn how to make Lemonade. I don't know how you like yours but I like mine tangy but sweet just like me.

XOXO,

Fre-

Life Thus Far... Excerpt

Chapter One

Center Stage: Akira White

Whosoever said, “life was a box of chocolates…” was a damn fool. I ain’t ever had so much badass chocolate in my life. Chocolate is supposed to be akin to the best sex you ever had… Not the one partner who head game you wish you could forget. I mean, hell, look at me. I am 25 years old, educated; successful for my age, and not to mention I am not busted. Ok, ok, ok, hold up… let me make that politically correct…. I am not unattractive. Lord knows I am sick and tired of people thinking that because I choose to speak in my regional dialect that I am somehow inferior to them. However, I digress. Now, if all those things are in play, why in the hell am I still single? I mean I try my best in all my relationships and still end up holding the short end of the stick. So why again am I always the bridesmaid and never the bride…? Never mind, don’t answer that. I really don’t think that I am ready for your answer and I might just go off. Instead, let me let you in on my side of the back-story:

Look for the rest coming soon... to a book store near you!